Unrequited Love

I'm a hopeless romantic. I love, love, honestly it is my favourite thing. I have for as long as I can remember. Could be star sign related, or could just be because I'm a loser. But, I love seeing people in love, I love watching love films, well, crying, at love films, hearing about love, and of course, being in love. I love the passion, thoughtfulness. It's indescribable; and I love it.

Unrequited love; the worst, most treacherous feeling in the world. Being desperately in love with someone who doesn't love you back. Nothing is worse than the complete agony of loving somebody who just sees you as another person. It could be that they don't want you in the way you want them, or the other person could be completely oblivious to the way you feel about them.

It's a feeling that I hate and somewhat love at the same time. I think the admiration is lovely but despise the way somebody can make you physically feel weak. It's crazy how a person can make my legs tremble and my whole body shake because of the burning passion I have towards them. I can't decide if I think the feeling of being so passionate about another person is beautiful or dangerous. I think everybody should have somebody who is completely and utterly obsessed with them.

''The exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable'' - Sex and the City. One of the greatest TV series in the history of all TV series. I've seen every episode countless times but no other part of the series has stuck out at me more than this quote. Because it is exquisite. Unrequited love is bitter sweet, although it tends to be painful I think the idea of admiring somebody with or without them acknowledging your feelings is pretty beautiful. There is nothing wrong with one sided love, because the feeling of love is so great in itself.

Just remember to ''Never apologize for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn’t apologize for being the sun. The rain doesn’t say sorry for falling. Feelings just are.''

Love is love.
Thank you for reading,

Chloë X

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Daily Make Up

I was asked on Tumblr to show you guys what make up I use. If you have any recommendations for what you want to hear leave a comment and I'll get writing!

I don't see myself as somebody who uses expensive make up. The majority of what I use is high-street and/or affordable. This post consists of what I tend to use daily so if you're interested keep reading.

Foundation for me is always such a struggle, I used to use Mac's Studio Sculpt but it started to make my skin quite spotty so on the hunt for something lighter I was introduced to No7's Stay Perfect. I love this foundation, where they colour match your skin for you the coverage is great. It's light and spreads really well (lasting a long time too). It's also super cheap currently priced at £14.50. If you want a light weight foundation that covers your blemishes without highlighting them, I'd recommend this to you, however it does get a little oily. To cover up blemishes and perfect my skin I use Make Up For Ever Full Cover Extreme Camouflage Cream which works wonders. It is oil free and long lasting so where my foundation is quite oily this somewhat mattifies(????) it. It sells at a very reasonable £21.00, I absolutely love it and would recommend it to everyone. (Not in this photo) but for my concealer I use Collection's Lasting Perfection in Fair as it's the palest concealer I've ever found and it's super cheap selling at £3.99.

I'm a lover of Sleek, I think it's super affordable and just in general a great brand. I have the Brow Kit in Dark and I absolutely adore it. I tend to only use the creme though as I don't think the powder works as well. This little kit comes equipped with two little brushes and mini tweezers which are all very handy and usable. I also use their i-Lust palette which is really lovely. The colours are glittery which I am LOVING at the moment, I tend to use the creme based colours as a somewhat base and then apply the glitter shadows on top so it stays on for much longer. My newest Sleek palette is an Eye & Cheek palette A Midsummer's Dream which includes Sunrise Blush, Suede Blush and Au Naturel i-Devine. The eye colours look as if they are browns but they are actually purples, and although this annoyed me at first the colours are very lovely and work very well together.

I think every girl should own at least one Naked palette (if you are into this kind of thing), this little one (Naked 2 Basics) is one of my favourites as it is what it is, basic nude shades and very reliable. I love a matte eye so this is perfect for an everyday subtle taupe/nude look.

For my cheeks I use Benefit's Hoola bronzer for I guess, a 'contour' and then Seventeen's Instant Glow Shimmer Brick. I've used this for a few years now and it still works a treat. It is a mix of a blush and bronzer and does make your face 'glow' which is marvelous.  

Benefit's They're Real mascara is my ALL time favourite. It is a huge pain to remove however the results are always incredible. £19.50 is quite pricey however I do think it's worth it for the incredible results and the length that the product lasts.

LIPS! I wear the same lipstick every, single, day. It's Mac's Satin lipstick in Spirit. I absolutely love it. However I think where I honestly wear it everyday, when I do try a new shade out I instantly don't like it. Satin are very long wearing and my personal favourite Mac lipstick finish. If you're looking for a darkish, brown nude shade for your lips I would recommend this. I usually tend to use Topshop's Ceramic lip liner but it does look lovely with a dark brown liner too. 

P.s. If you have any lip recommendations, please do leave a comment and let me know, I think I need to mix it up a little.

I have linked all my products below in case you're interested!

Thank you for reading,

Chloë X

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LISTED PRODUCTS!
www.boots.com/en/Collection-Lasting-Perfection-Concealer_1693350/
www.debenhams.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/prod_10701_10001_123435007699_-1
www.boots.com/en/SEVENTEEN-Instant-Glow-Shimmer-Brick_1321239/
www.boots.com/en/No7-Stay-Perfect-Foundation_1376459/
www.boots.com/en/Sleek-Makeup-Brow-Kit-Medium_1800921/
www.boots.com/en/Sleek-MakeUp-Eye-Cheek-Palette_1537819/
www.boots.com/en/Sleek-Makeup-i-lust-palette-the-gold-standard_1753300/
www.boots.com/en/benefit-hoola-bronzing-powder_2819/
www.boots.com/en/Benefit-Theyre-Real-Mascara_1231677/
www.topshop.com/en/tsuk/product/beauty-3326659/lips-471/lip-liner-715/lip-liner-in-ceramic-62055?bi=0&ps=20
www.maccosmetics.co.uk/product/shaded/168/310/Products/Lips/Lipstick/Lipstick/index.tmpl
www.urbandecay.co.uk/naked/naked-colour/naked-2-basics-palette?gclid=CjwKEAiA_ra1BRDV-byb_aDqpQoSJAA-ofB9UHccyANj4_Sp_Ji0zdQHHFkE_sTmiSxGT4BEEdEwKRoCsHTw_wcB&gclsrc=aw.ds&dclid=CNGCu8Sp1MoCFWyUwgodKTwBPg

Lush Haul

I've been a Lush customer for as long as I can remember. I pretty much only like having a bath if I have a bath bomb to come in with me. After receiving some lovely bits for Christmas, I thought I'd treat myself to some more, and, as per usual I am delighted with the purchases I made.

Dragon's Egg

I loved this fun filled bath bomb with colourful confetti, my one critique is the water colour left is golden/yellow which leaves me feeling uncomfortable as it looks like I'm bathing in very strong (yet nice smelling) wee, a few Lush bath bombs create yellow/orange water but  nevertheless I am ALWAYS satisfied. It has a very citrus fresh smell which is lovely, leaving you feel very clean and relaxed. 

Karma

I haven't used karma yet but I have heard great things about it, what's not to love about a soak in a glittery purple bath? What I love about bubble bars is that you can get more than one bath out of it, I reckon I could have about  three baths with using Karma as it is quite large. This bubble bar is quite zesty, smells very clean with a hint of patchouli which is very fresh. I'm very excited to use this.

Intergalactic

I saw this bath bomb on Instagram and fell in love. It kind of reminded me of the 'Experimenter' bath bomb but a more pretty version as I'd much prefer to bathe in blue glitter rather than the greenish colour the experimenter left me with. I loved this galactic treat. The peppermint and popping candy works exceptionally well together creating an ''80's aftershave'' scent that I absolutely adore. You leave the bath feeling soft, smelling divine and shimmering with glitter. It's a must have.

Soft Coeur

This massage bar is such a beauty, I am a lover of a sweet smell. I've loved it for endless years, my mum has used it for the majority of my existence and it smells like a dream. A sweet creamy vanilla, toffee, cocoa scent that soften your skin and leaves you smelling heavenly for hours. Every time I visit Lush I get my friend to give me an arm massage using it. I absolutely love it and recommend it greatly to you all.

Eau Roma Water

My sister introduced this product to me and I am so glad she did. The Rose water calms the skin and reduces redness (which I NEED), whist the lavender water softens the skin. This is great to use before moisturising to start the day and great for removing access make up at the end of the day. This product is so great a few spritzes of this completely freshens up my face and really does work a treat, it smells beautiful and makes you feel awake. I recommend you try this.

Thanks for reading, what lush products have you used recently? 

Chloë X

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Beauty

I've always had thoughts on this. I love how beauty is defined in so many different ways. People can be beautiful, weather, cars, music. People see beauty in different things. I like that, I like how somebody's face can be the most beautiful thing I've ever seen but then so are flowers, so is food I've eaten, you know? I like how you can smell beauty, feel it, touch it, see it. There is endless forms of beauty. Light is beautiful, the changing of seasons is beautiful, colours, feelings, halloumi, love, laughter, words... There is so much in beauty and it goes often unnoticed. 

There is beauty in every where, again like love, I think we disregard it. It's over looked and certainly not appreciated enough. Everything has beauty, it's just not everybody sees it. There's beauty in so much. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It's something that "pleases the aesthetic senses". Similarly to perfection, everybody's perception of it is different, and I love that. I love how people find beauty in different things that other people would pay no attention to. I love how I could think somebody is the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on, but to somebody else it could be just another face. ''One man's trash is another man's treasure'' people can be intoxicated by beauty, and I love that.

Thanks for reading.

Chloë X

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Just a Thought

I think there is too much negativity and sadness around at the moment, unhappiness is an all time high. And it's sad because it's so easy to make somebody smile, whether it be showing an interest in their day, paying them a complement or just smiling at them. If anything were ever to happen to people you love you would regret not telling them that you loved them enough. I have a really strong friendships with people because it's so easy to be genuine and tell them how much you're thankful for their companionship, that you love them, that they look beautiful and just showing them general respect. ''You look nice today'' I don't know, just simple things that make people feel good about themselves. My friends and I are always dropping random complements in our conversations and each time it feels nicer to receive. I really don't think we tell people how much we appreciate them enough. 

When I am working if I like a customers hair, nails, clothing or whatever I'll tell them. I'm not afraid to tell people they look good. Seeing a genuine smile from them afterwards is so nice. I hope that something that was so natural and easy to say could have made that persons day. I just wish more people were comfortable with telling people that like what they've done with their hair, or whatever because it's the simple things that go a long way.

Sometimes nice words go over your head. But sometimes they stay with you and when you're feeling unhappy with yourself you remind yourself of when these kind things were said about you. For example, about 4 years ago I was waiting for a friend to get off of her bus and two old ladies got off and without any hesitation said that I was beautiful to my face and spoke so lovely about me to her friend. It still makes me smile all these years later. Negative things however are much easier to remember, again,  for example; the very first time I met my ex's friends about 3/4 years ago (I was youngish and very shy) I heard one girl say "she's pretty", in which another responded "yeah for Shrek" in which they then were laughing and saying "Fiona" behind my back for the whole time I was there and as we walked away. Firstly, I don't know who these girls were, nor do I care, but what I do know is that they made me feel so fucking shit and insecure and I still today think how nasty that was. Secondly I fucking hate Shrek so it was a double insult. Anyway, I'm not green so I try not take it to heart. If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything. It is shit that something that they probably cannot even remember saying still pisses me off years later. But then this works either way I guess, if you make somebody happy with a words you've said it would feel so nice knowing that they still are thankful for what you said that random day 4 years ago.

It's so easy to be nice. It's totally cool to not like somebody, you won't always get on with everyone, but don't be a dick about it. Be nice to people. I just think if everyone were to just be nice, and if you think somebody looks nice, TELL THEM they might be having a really shitty day and you could completely change that. Make people smile, it's nice. 

Let me know what you want next. 

Thank You!

Chloë X

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Autumn Favourites

As were in one of the best seasons of the year, I thought I'd show you guys my favourite pieces this season. Along with the majority of people, Autumn is my favourite time of the year (next to winter) I love wrapping up warm, coats, boots etc. I think that its easier to dress at this time of the year and I bloody love it! SO here is just an insight to a few of my much loved Autumn pieces.

THE LUMBERJACK

As soon as its Autumn, this beauty makes an appearance (for most of the Autumn/Winter season). I adore it. It's actually my mums, but if you're anything like me I'm always stealing her old stuff that's cool (not all of it though because she wears crocs HA) anyway, this shirt/jacket is about 18 years old? A family (kind of) tradition of ours is Disneyland every year, this was purchased from one of the stores in Frontierland (right where Thunder Mountain is). And I'm so glad she's kept it all these years as it is my ALL time favourite.I love the red and black pattern and think it looks good on pretty much everyone. I'm on the hunt for shirt with the same pattern (please leave a comment if you know where they're selling them)! This pattern always wearable in the fall and comes back into fashion yearly, you can't really go wrong with it! 

SHIRT MEETS T-SHIRT

£22.99 Zara

I was accompanying a good friend of mine shopping the other day and ended up spending quite a bit of money on myself, surprise-surprise. I am forever dressing in black, but I've found a few pieces this year that are colourful(ish). I fell in love with this top in Zara and instantly said 'I'm buying it' NO hesitation whatsoever! So I did buy it and love it! I think it will be easy to style with black jeans, or a denim skirt, bringing together a 70's meets 90's style! The colours in this top are orange, green, black and grey, and work pretty damn well together believe it or not! This is from the Trafaluc collection (TRF) in Zara which has forever been my favourite.

THE BEST BOOTS KNOWN TO MAN!

Dr Martens Flora Boot £110

For my 18th birthday last year my younger sister got me the Flora Boot in Cherry Red. I ruined the first pair by catching my foot on a door and cut a bit of the shoe off (worst day of my life). Luckily we were able to return them and start again! After that incident I was scared to wear them again so kept them in the box for a long time. Now were back into the cold weather I cannot get them off of my feet. I love how the colour is coming through stronger where I've worn them in. I love them so much and recommend them to everyone. and anybody who wears Docs knows they're worth the money because not only do they look fabulous, they last for a VERY long time and are ALWAYS on trend! (and comfy).

Thanks for reading! I'd love to know your favourites!

Chloë X

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Love Yourself

I always see posts online of people saying 'love yourself before you love anybody else', 'love who you are' and stuff and I think that's true and great. My problem is however, as soon as somebody does show a hint of self praise they're shot down with 'full of themselves', 'big headed' and 'loves themselves too much'.

I grew up hating who I was, it's really sad. I know SO many people are/were the same. I remember literally screaming and crying one day when I was as young as 6/7? in my room because I thought I looked like a boy, and sounded like Malfoy from Harry Potter (lol). I think that is so so so sad that at that young age I was embarrassed of myself. I hope there is nobody that young that feels the same. This feeling was continual for so many years until the past year or so? My unhappiness was getting a little unbearable, looking in the mirror saying ''I hate you, you're ugly,'' I did that far too often and looking back at it now it's quite heartbreaking. I kinda bullied myself I guess, now if I'm feeling shitty I try be positive to myself because it helps. I'm so much happier with myself now. I ditched people who make me feel worthless, stopped caring what people might have thought about me and spent time with people I loved. If you surround yourself with people who love you, you will start to love yourself. 

It is SO important to love who you are, I believe its totally fine to like your body, your hair or facial features. You are you. If you don't appreciate yourself you'll be miserable, you'll train yourself to believe that nobody will want you, because you don't even want you. If you appreciate you, you won't care what other people think. I love the way I dress, I like how I do my hair, I like my make up and I like me and if somebody turned around go me and was like 'I don't like that' I'd let it go over my head, I don't care if somebody isn't a fan of what I'm doing with myself, I'm a fan.

So, love yourself. Tell yourself in the mirror that you look cool today. Rub your confidence off on other people so they can feel good too. Being told that 'you love yourself' shouldn't be an insult, embrace it. You're only given one life, it's up to you to make it a good one.

Thanks for reading.

Chloë X

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My First Blog Post

As this being my first blog post to keep (you very few) readers from moving on from my blog I will TRY (empathesis on the try if you hadn't noticed already) keep this quite short and simple.

                                       

                                                                                                               (me)

I am currently 18, almost 19 (not that that's relevant). Anyway, a brief synopsis of what I like is as follows; I'm not musically talented in anyway but (like every person ever) I love music, going to gigs, concerts, live music I just love it. I spent the majority of my childhood and teenage years being a shy awkward and moderately miserable girl but after realising I really need to grow up I'm A LOT more confident (but still need a little bit of work). I have three best friends, 1. Lives in Essex, we've been friends since we were 4. 2. Just moved to university, when I moved secondary school she was my designated 'Buddy', I wasn't too sure at first but we've been inseparable since and last by certainly not least, number 3. My 17 year old sister. As sad as that may sound they are literally the three most perfect and beautiful people in my life and I wouldn't want to live life without them. 

                                      My sister and I in Brugge, Belguim August, 2015.

I'm no expert but again (like every girl ever) I love putting on my make-up to make myself feel pretty. I have trialed and error-ed for years and can now averagely apply eye-shadow but simply cannot and will not trust myself with winged eyeliner. // I like photography // I wasn't a big reader until summer last year. // I love heeled boots, shoes, clothes and fashion in general however working part-time in Next isn't funding this as much as I would hope. (It's full-time o'clock as I do nothing with my time and still need to figure out a career path lol). // I'm a walking cliche, I love cats, though i do not have one, I'm a frequent Starbucks customer. Still a huge Bieber fan, I love eating out in restaurants, I adore Mexican food. I love dead roses (and alive ones) there is a lot more to say but I think I'll call it a day. 

Obviously this isn't me inside out, you still only know the basics, if you even stayed long enough to read any of this anyway. But I like writing, I like the internet and I guess I thought it would be remotely cool if people enjoyed reading what I write instead of it going unread on my Tumblr or in my little diaries I keep. I guess I'll write about anything from my views on things to my opinion on the semi-tragic society we currently live in. 

What else do you want to know or hear about?
Thanks for your time, really.

Chloë X

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