Hello 2016

And goodbye 2015.

Entering 2016 with tonsillitis has not been ideal but it didn't stop me from spending my new years eve with the greatest of friends. I couldn't of spent it with better people, even though a tequila shot definitely nearly killed me and getting picked up by weird foreign people was bizarre. I ended a somewhat crappy year with my best friends getting roaring drunk, getting a little emotional at midnight and screaming the very few lyrics of 'Auld Lang Syne' that I actually know.

I don't do New Years resolutions, nobody ever seems to ever keep them and I don't think the entering a new year justifies a change, I mean if you want to do something different or new you can do it whenever you want, but that's just me. I can't think of a year when I've actually had one and don't think I ever will.

I had very high hopes for 2015, I made some great memories, saw so many incredible music artists, finally left education, fell out of love, fell in love, went on holiday with my lifelong best friend, work with a bunch of lovely people, went on our annual trip to Disneyland, went to Belgium, started this blog and met new people. I am very lucky and very thankful for all this. I keep these little yearly diaries with 365 pages, in which everyday I write a little something down, then, at the end of the year I read through to see what happened. This year it was a little book of negativity. It is so crap the bad days overrule the goodness in my life. Although there was so much beauty in 2015 there was shed loads of awfulness, that I don't really want to express on here. 

2015 went so fast, It was over in a flash. Here are some of my favourite memories of the year.

Ed Sheeran @ Wembely.

Honestly, some days I forget that I've seen Ed live. This day was so surreal. I had a nightmare with the tickets, I remember about a week before I realised that they had not arrived, after turning the house upside down I checked my conformation email only to see that I had incorrectly typed in my postcode. Worst. Day. Ever. Luckily it was all sorted out and we didn't miss out on one of the most incredible experiences of my life. Still feels too good to be true. Every concert I went to in 2015 blew my mind, Saint Raymond, The Vamps, Catfish and the Bottlemen, Honne and The 1975 some even twice, I had a great year for music and nothing makes me happier that hearing the beginning of my favourite song start and me drunkenly screaming 'YES YES YES'. There is nothing better.  

Week in Greece with my best friend

I hardly ever see my best friend anymore since I moved to Kent, so I am so grateful that this actually happened. It was the funnest and most hilarious week of my life. I wouldn't have wanted to go on this trip with anybody but her. Although getting covered in gnat bites and getting absolutely, horrifically drunk every night killed my immune system, it was insane. (Even though it took me about 3 weeks to recover).

Disneyland Paris 

Disneyland Paris is my favourite place in the whole world. I am so thankful for my parents bringing me up returning here every year (bar a few). It is so beautiful and magical. Although it looks like Summer we actually went in December, as per. It wasn't as festive as we hoped as the fake snow fell down with the brightest blue sky we'd ever seen. But it was incredible, there were queues no longer than 5 minutes, an employee actually traded one of his trading pins with me (first time in 6 years!!!!) and from the second we arrived I was the happiest girl in the world. I just fucking love it.

Thank you to everybody who made 2015 special, I wish each and every one of you all the best for 2016.

Happy New Year!

Thank you for reading.

Chloë X

Find me on my social media here:

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/chloedurant

TWITTER: www.twitter.com/chloedurant

Just a Thought

I think there is too much negativity and sadness around at the moment, unhappiness is an all time high. And it's sad because it's so easy to make somebody smile, whether it be showing an interest in their day, paying them a complement or just smiling at them. If anything were ever to happen to people you love you would regret not telling them that you loved them enough. I have a really strong friendships with people because it's so easy to be genuine and tell them how much you're thankful for their companionship, that you love them, that they look beautiful and just showing them general respect. ''You look nice today'' I don't know, just simple things that make people feel good about themselves. My friends and I are always dropping random complements in our conversations and each time it feels nicer to receive. I really don't think we tell people how much we appreciate them enough. 

When I am working if I like a customers hair, nails, clothing or whatever I'll tell them. I'm not afraid to tell people they look good. Seeing a genuine smile from them afterwards is so nice. I hope that something that was so natural and easy to say could have made that persons day. I just wish more people were comfortable with telling people that like what they've done with their hair, or whatever because it's the simple things that go a long way.

Sometimes nice words go over your head. But sometimes they stay with you and when you're feeling unhappy with yourself you remind yourself of when these kind things were said about you. For example, about 4 years ago I was waiting for a friend to get off of her bus and two old ladies got off and without any hesitation said that I was beautiful to my face and spoke so lovely about me to her friend. It still makes me smile all these years later. Negative things however are much easier to remember, again,  for example; the very first time I met my ex's friends about 3/4 years ago (I was youngish and very shy) I heard one girl say "she's pretty", in which another responded "yeah for Shrek" in which they then were laughing and saying "Fiona" behind my back for the whole time I was there and as we walked away. Firstly, I don't know who these girls were, nor do I care, but what I do know is that they made me feel so fucking shit and insecure and I still today think how nasty that was. Secondly I fucking hate Shrek so it was a double insult. Anyway, I'm not green so I try not take it to heart. If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything. It is shit that something that they probably cannot even remember saying still pisses me off years later. But then this works either way I guess, if you make somebody happy with a words you've said it would feel so nice knowing that they still are thankful for what you said that random day 4 years ago.

It's so easy to be nice. It's totally cool to not like somebody, you won't always get on with everyone, but don't be a dick about it. Be nice to people. I just think if everyone were to just be nice, and if you think somebody looks nice, TELL THEM they might be having a really shitty day and you could completely change that. Make people smile, it's nice. 

Let me know what you want next. 

Thank You!

Chloë X

Find me on my social media here:

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/chloedurant

TWITTER: www.twitter.com/chloedurant

Love Yourself

I always see posts online of people saying 'love yourself before you love anybody else', 'love who you are' and stuff and I think that's true and great. My problem is however, as soon as somebody does show a hint of self praise they're shot down with 'full of themselves', 'big headed' and 'loves themselves too much'.

I grew up hating who I was, it's really sad. I know SO many people are/were the same. I remember literally screaming and crying one day when I was as young as 6/7? in my room because I thought I looked like a boy, and sounded like Malfoy from Harry Potter (lol). I think that is so so so sad that at that young age I was embarrassed of myself. I hope there is nobody that young that feels the same. This feeling was continual for so many years until the past year or so? My unhappiness was getting a little unbearable, looking in the mirror saying ''I hate you, you're ugly,'' I did that far too often and looking back at it now it's quite heartbreaking. I kinda bullied myself I guess, now if I'm feeling shitty I try be positive to myself because it helps. I'm so much happier with myself now. I ditched people who make me feel worthless, stopped caring what people might have thought about me and spent time with people I loved. If you surround yourself with people who love you, you will start to love yourself. 

It is SO important to love who you are, I believe its totally fine to like your body, your hair or facial features. You are you. If you don't appreciate yourself you'll be miserable, you'll train yourself to believe that nobody will want you, because you don't even want you. If you appreciate you, you won't care what other people think. I love the way I dress, I like how I do my hair, I like my make up and I like me and if somebody turned around go me and was like 'I don't like that' I'd let it go over my head, I don't care if somebody isn't a fan of what I'm doing with myself, I'm a fan.

So, love yourself. Tell yourself in the mirror that you look cool today. Rub your confidence off on other people so they can feel good too. Being told that 'you love yourself' shouldn't be an insult, embrace it. You're only given one life, it's up to you to make it a good one.

Thanks for reading.

Chloë X

Find me on my social media here:

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/chloedurant

TWITTER: www.twitter.com/chloedurant

My First Blog Post

As this being my first blog post to keep (you very few) readers from moving on from my blog I will TRY (empathesis on the try if you hadn't noticed already) keep this quite short and simple.

                                       

                                                                                                               (me)

I am currently 18, almost 19 (not that that's relevant). Anyway, a brief synopsis of what I like is as follows; I'm not musically talented in anyway but (like every person ever) I love music, going to gigs, concerts, live music I just love it. I spent the majority of my childhood and teenage years being a shy awkward and moderately miserable girl but after realising I really need to grow up I'm A LOT more confident (but still need a little bit of work). I have three best friends, 1. Lives in Essex, we've been friends since we were 4. 2. Just moved to university, when I moved secondary school she was my designated 'Buddy', I wasn't too sure at first but we've been inseparable since and last by certainly not least, number 3. My 17 year old sister. As sad as that may sound they are literally the three most perfect and beautiful people in my life and I wouldn't want to live life without them. 

                                      My sister and I in Brugge, Belguim August, 2015.

I'm no expert but again (like every girl ever) I love putting on my make-up to make myself feel pretty. I have trialed and error-ed for years and can now averagely apply eye-shadow but simply cannot and will not trust myself with winged eyeliner. // I like photography // I wasn't a big reader until summer last year. // I love heeled boots, shoes, clothes and fashion in general however working part-time in Next isn't funding this as much as I would hope. (It's full-time o'clock as I do nothing with my time and still need to figure out a career path lol). // I'm a walking cliche, I love cats, though i do not have one, I'm a frequent Starbucks customer. Still a huge Bieber fan, I love eating out in restaurants, I adore Mexican food. I love dead roses (and alive ones) there is a lot more to say but I think I'll call it a day. 

Obviously this isn't me inside out, you still only know the basics, if you even stayed long enough to read any of this anyway. But I like writing, I like the internet and I guess I thought it would be remotely cool if people enjoyed reading what I write instead of it going unread on my Tumblr or in my little diaries I keep. I guess I'll write about anything from my views on things to my opinion on the semi-tragic society we currently live in. 

What else do you want to know or hear about?
Thanks for your time, really.

Chloë X

Find me on my social media here:

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/chloedurant
TWITTER: www.twitter.com/chloedurant